BACK TO SEPTEMBER
HEY! Wow, it has been a hot minute since I last posted. And, I guess I needed the break. Thanks for sticking it out with me. I appreicate every single one of you that continue to come back to this site and read my shit 😉
This summer was a crazy one. Actually, I lie- it was kind of tame. I worked 3 jobs this summer… (I don’t recommend it) don’t work your whole life! That is what my summer felt like, and I was not happy. I took a extra job for some more money to get ahead, and it did the opposite. I was so miserable that I used the extra money I earned on purchasing “things” to make me feel better, instead of saving or paying off my debt like I had originally planned. LOL. So yes, moral of the story- if you aren’t happy day to day, even money won’t help ya. What is the point? At this time in my life, I would rather have work/life balance then have lots of money and no life due to work. Maybe that is just me, but can anyone else relate? Working all the time (especially if it is at something you really don’t enjoy) is stressful AF, and we all know stress is related to 99.9% of all illnesses. SOOOOO, nuff said.
QUICK UPDATE- I left the job! Hallelujah!!!… it will not be named because I don’t want to bash the company. It was a great learning experience- and I now know another thing that is just not for me. I also want to thank my goddess friend Jess, for giving me a reading and a little nudge to make the leap. She pulled some cards for me and did a reading. It was so spot on! She pulled the opportunity card, not once, but twice for me. If that wasn’t a sign, I don’t know what is. I am WAY more happier in these first few weeks. Sept 1st was my last day and all I can say is September has been a big, big, BIG changes month. Don’t worry, I will elaborate.
For the long weekend, I went to Colorado with some friends. (It is funny how I previously made this blog for my travels- since I traveled about 10 times in 2017, and this year 2018 hasn’t seen much traveling… oh well) It was a great weekend trip to end the summer. We were in Keystone, which reminded me a lot of Whistler and also made me realize how fortunate I am to live where I do. It is truly beautiful. GO CANADA! After that weekend, I decided that I was going to get back into the routine like I had done in January of this year. I feel the theme for this year is truly finding myself and doing some serious soul searching.
I started off this year cutting out some people in my life for personal reasons, and just taking a step back and looking at what I truly wanted to do, accomplish and contribute in my life. I started 80 Day Obsession in January and freaking loved the program! I didn’t miss a day of working out- however, I didn’t follow the meal plan to a T. The program also suggested that you withstand from alcohol for the 80 days. I made it a total of 34 days I believe, before I went out with a girlfriend for one vodka soda that turned into 10 or 12. Needless to say I was a little disappointed and then, I just decided to continue to drink. That continuation lead into summer- VERY HARD. One, it was sunny and for some reason when its sunny I always want sangria, and two- I was working a job I hated, so on the weekends I got loaded.
NEEDING A CHANGE
Well, long story short, by the end of the summer, I ended up gaining the weight back that I lost and I was just feeling blah and sad. I knew something needed to change. So, I recommitted to another 80 days doing the program, however this time, I decided to do the “no alcohol” part with it. Last time, thinking about “giving up” alcohol for 80 days seemed really impossible. I don’t remember the last time I had ever gone that long without drinking. I feel like this topic will be a whole other blog post (so stay tuned) but regardless, this time I was ready to give it up. And I am going to go another 10 days just because. So a total of 90 days, no drinking. Yep, that goes into a wedding I am attending, Thanksgiving, Halloween, Christmas… yep, all of it. There are always going to be “those things”. You just have to commit anyway! I am doing this for personal reasons (perhaps a blog post I will share) and also to see if I can just do it! I started drinking at the age of 14… and I have always been a binger. I don’t really like alcohol… I am not the type to have a glass of wine with dinner. Its either nothing at all, or all of it. I have come to the realization that I drink to get drunk and honestly, that is just not flying anymore. Especially as a fitness teacher/yoga instructor. I’m tired of it.
So, its September 24th, and I have been sober 14 days. I decided I was going to do this on September 9th. What was eerie, or probably just the universe having my back, was I found this a few days later… cool right? What an amazing time and day to commit this to myself.
I know I have a long time to go, and I will continue to share here and be as authentic as I can. I am in a good place, and I am excited to see what is to come on this journey. I know it will not be easy, but I have a feeling it will be so worth it! I am back to two jobs instead of three, so I will have the time blocked out to continue this passion of mine (bogging and documenting) so you will be seeing more posts from me again. I am grateful and happy if you are still reading this, and want to just share my love and appreciation for you. Thank you for supporting this blog!
See you soon,